I've been thinking a lot about how being a mom will teach me more about my relationship with God, and His love for me. Right now, I have so much assurance and peace about Him knowing exactly where our baby is right now and when we will be ready for it. So, who am I to rush this waiting period along?
Although sometimes, "not yet," is the worst message I want to hear...whether it be from my parents, my boss, my husband, or my God. Yet, right now, I keep thinking about a little kid who wants to eat ice cream before dinner. Momma won't let him, not because she's mean, but because she wants him to be healthy and appreciate the ice cream after a nutritious meal.
God has given me every healthy dream I had for my life, a five course meal unlike any other, if you will.... a truly amazing husband, a wonderful career, so many friends that I don't have time for them, and a family who is more supportive than I dreamed of, and the promise of eternity. The other day I was feeling so blessed that I literally thought for a minute, "It is okay if nothing changes. I would be happy with my life if this is it."
And then I remembered how incredibly sweet dessert is going to be. Dessert - so unnecessary, but so the perfect way to round out a wonderful meal. But, eaten too soon, and the whole meal will not be enjoyed or appreciated.
So God, when you're ready to serve it, my dessert plate is ready and waiting.
And I can't wait to dig in.