Wednesday, September 30, 2009

And then there was a chair...

There is actually a real piece of furniture in my house that is for use with a baby. My baby. This is a reality!

Monday, September 28, 2009

The Best Adoption Perspective...

Tonight, in reference to the uncertain timeline of adoption, my friend Sammy said to me, "It's like holding the winning lottery ticket and just not knowing when you're going to cash it in."

I could have cried. Thanks, Sam.

Saturday, September 26, 2009

Preparing the kitchen...

Even if little feet won't be pattering and little knees won't be crawling for a long time, the kitchen is prepared!

Or should we say now I don't have to worry about tripping over the fake tile in flip flops anymore.

Thanks, Dad, for helping me install the new floors today! You rock!

Friday, September 25, 2009

I am annoyed...

For the adoption approval, we have to make a will which state to whom we entrust the care of our future children.

To entrust the care of your child to someone else, you must actually have a child that you can name in the will, or the will is not legally binding, according to

So, I called the adoption agency to ask what other couples do in the situation. The receptionist told me, "Well, most people just say "children that will be born to us.""

I had to laugh. But now I am annoyed.

Any suggestions?

Wednesday, September 23, 2009

Ask and ye shall receive...

Wow, I will never cease to be amazed at the power of the interent. Within a few hours of my last post, I had 2 offers for gliders for free, and someone else offer to help me recover one if I didn't like the fabric. Thanks Sarah, Joan, and Denise!

Last night, as I was waiting for my home made chicken pot pie to cook, I reorganized/cleaned out the cabinet in our kitchen. We now have two empty shelves for bottles. How long will I keep opening the cabinet looking for the tupperware that used to be there?

Hoping to get a good start on the flooring this weekend. Walking around on bare unfinished 100 year old gross floors is, well, gross! Shoes in the kitchen for sure!

Monday, September 21, 2009

2 down, 1 big one to go

Our first two home studies are behind us! The next one is October 20, at our house this time. You know what that means? CLEANING PARTY!!!

And you are invited. ;)

In the meantime, I am in search of a glider/rocker. I have been looking on craigslist like crazy. If you see one cheap somewhere - give me a call. My goal is to put it in the future baby's room, and sit in there and pray for our future baby, the future birthmother, our social worker, and us as parents. I know, good idea, right? So, not mine, but I like it!

Saturday, September 19, 2009

God, help me remember...

...that my fears and worries need to be replaced with faith and trusting YOUR plan.

Wednesday, September 16, 2009

4 months into this...

And I am actually beginning to freak out.

Interestingly enough, my newest follower, "kalibug," commented yesterday and said, "I'm sorry the wait is so long." At first I thought, "Aw, thanks." Today I am feeling the total opposite. I feel like everything is happening so fast. I guess that is the result of anything that is a "hurry up and wait" process.

On Monday is our second home study interview, and I just cannot believe it's already been a month since our first one. So, if you are following my math, we have one more a month from now, and THAT IS IT. Two months from now, Lord willing, we will be approved to be parents. Is that weird and funny to anyone else?

Anyway, I am sure it is normal to be sobered by the idea of being responsible for another human life, and right now I am completely there. I am overwhelmed at the thought of a total life change, and at times I mourn for the end of our newlywed days. Herb and I seem to have a more active social life in the last month than we've had in years, and I wonder if that is our subconscious way of throwing caution to the wind in these last baby-free days/weeks/months/years? (I surely hope not years).

HOWEVER, the ball is completely in our court at this time. If I wanted to grasp onto my so-called freedom a little tighter and a little longer, all it would take is one phone call. So am I going to make that call? Are my coming-and-going-as-I-please days and restful nights more important than fulfilling a lifelong yearning and desire, not to mention a God-given dream and role?


One night, many years ago, I had a breakdown in Herb's old prism in the parking lot of Lyte Auditorium. "I don't know if I'm really ready to get married!! I don't know if I can do it!" I cried. Herb, frustrated and humored at the same time said, "Of course you can!" He was right. That total life changed turned out to be absolutely the best and easiest decision of my life, and just got better with time.

I'm pretty sure that's what parenthood will feel like too.

Especially if I have the same hunk telling me, "Of course you are!"

Oh, but now, he really knows what it is like to be a man and he's like even a million times better for me/to me than he was when I married him.


Monday, September 14, 2009

If you give Michelle a baby...

If you give Michelle a baby,
first she will have to fill out an adoption application

If she fills out an adoption application,
then she will have to have a home study

If Michelle and Herb have a home study,
then they will have to look at the safety of their home through a magnifying glass

If they inspect the safety of their home,
They will have to pro-actively replace the kitchen floor (and bathroom, but that's another story)

If they decide to replace the kitchen floor,
They will find a great deal on laminate, and continue the new floor to the living room and dining room

If they purchase new laminate,
They will have to remove the old vinyl, sub floor one, linoleum, sub floor two

If they remove the old vinyl, sub floor one, linoleum, sub floor two,
They will discover disgusting water damage from the refrigerator and dishwasher

If they discover disgusting water damage from the refrigerator and dishwasher,
They will have to replace both appliances before the new floor goes in

If they replace the appliances,
Consequently, the refrigerator will literally quit working just a few days before a new one was to be bought

If the refrigerator will literally quit working just a few days before a new one was to be bought,
Herb will remind Michelle of God's sovereign timing.

If Herb reminds Michelle of God's sovereign timing,
Michelle will still have to spend the evening looking for a new fridge

If Michelle spends the evening looking for a new fridge,
She will get frustrated

If she gets frustrated,
She will call her mother in law, vent, and look at consumer reports

If she calls her mother in law, vent, and look at consumer reports,
She will pause for a minute to post her frustration on facebook

If she posts her frustration on facebook,
She will remember to also write a blog

If she writes a blog post,
She will be reminded that all this is for a baby

If she remembers that all this is for a baby,
She is calm, and happy

If Michelle is calm and happy,
Can you give her a baby?

Friday, September 11, 2009

The Little Things...

There are little things I do to remind myself we're "expecting," such as window shopping, baby name choosing, nursery cleaning, and more recently onsie buying. Herb has his little things too. For example, he eats like he's pregnant. Not so much in quantity, but the quality of the foods...

Right now, he's making an english muffin, toasted with pepperjack cheese and deli ham, and then topped with pancacke syrup.


Wednesday, September 9, 2009

Is it too soon...

to start buying baby clothes?

Good, I was hoping you would agree with me. I just can't resist half off Wednesday's at Salvation Army. I got a onsie with palm trees and those stupid little cars you haul a surf board on.