Thursday, November 26, 2009

Baby Dreams

After having this dream, I took a 6 week dreaming hiatus...but they have come back with a vengeance. I will TRY to keep these brief, but some of them are so humorous. So, enjoy!

Dream 1 - Saturday Night

I dreamed I was very pregnant. We knew that the baby would not live, and we were bummed about that until we found out that even if you have a still birth, you can bring a baby home from the hospital. This is how adoption worked.

Dream 2 - Sunday Night

The dream begins with me lying in a hospital bed, holding a black haired little baby boy. Herb is sitting beside my bed and I say, "What happened?" Herb tells me how we have a son, and we didn't know I was pregnant until two weeks ago. "Just like that show on TLC?" I asked. I tell Herb that I don't remember being pregnant, or giving birth. To prove to me that it actually happened, he shows me a digital camera and I look through all the pictures of me in delivery. As I am holding this most precious baby, I tell Herb, "This is not what we planned for, we are supposed to be adopting." Herb assures me that everything will be just fine, we have a baby now!

And here's the kicker, the next thing I say in the dream is: "Well, I guess I can love this birth child as much as I was planning to love our adopted baby." Like I was settling to have a biological child!!! Man, if that dream doesn't tell me how "okay" I am with this whole adoption process, I don't know what does!

Dream 3 - Monday Night

My principal, who has no children, came into school holding a baby. I said, "When did this happen?" He told me that Taco Bell was giving out free babies with their value meals. The problem was that I had just eaten at Taco Bell, and didn't realize there was a baby in the bag, and I had thrown it away. So then I was wrestling with whether or not to go back to Taco Bell and get another baby, or just wait till we got picked by a birthmother. I kept saying, "If we get a Taco Bell baby, it will never know it's birth mom!"
Disclaimer: I have not eaten at or thought about Taco Bell in several weeks, so this is totally random!

Friday, November 20, 2009

Prince Charming Lives In My House

This morning, I got rear ended. It sucked. But the morning ended with a with a man who drove an hour and a half to come to my rescue.

This afternoon, I got a lunch date and lazy nap time with said prince charming.

I am blessed.

Sunday, November 15, 2009

What We've Been Up To (In Pictures)

Here's what we've been up to in the last 4 weeks (has it been 4 weeks since our homestudy already?)

Going to Will Ferrell Halloween parties!

New flooring! We also moved the large dining room table to the kitchen. As you can see, the dining room is now a "music parlor..." aka, living room over flow. Making room for rocking chairs, swings, and pack n plays.

Putting together the nursery! The crib is together (not picture), the paint is chosen (although not on walls yet), and the top of a quilt has been made.

LOTS and LOTS of marching band.
And...the last thing we needed to do to get paper pregnant - finish the profile book!!! Here is the picture our wonderful neighbor, Allison, took for us this afternoon. This will be THE picture on the front of the book and on the website.

Thursday, November 12, 2009

Old Friends, New Friends, Cyber Friends

This is not adoption or baby related, but blog related!

Tonight I had dinner with a friend. We chatted about babies, married life, faith, politics, beer, teaching, cake decorating, sewing, and blogs. There were not long pauses in conversation, and we didn't run out of things to talk about. We shared secret baby name ideas and an apple crisp dessert. It was awesome lady time!

The funny thing is, this was the first time Joan and I have ever hung out. Joan feels like an old friend, but she's more like a new friend, but in reality, probably more of a cyber friend. She's married to a great guy who was one of my best friends from high school in another life. As our college and careers took us on different life paths, I didn't get to know Joan until they were already married (or at least pretty close to it). So between that and the beauty of blogs and facebook, I think it feels like we've known each other forever!

I know people get frustrated with the Internet/facebook stalking, but in this situation, I truly believe this has created a stronger bond. She knows what is going on in my life and where my heart is now - does it matter where that knowledge came from? This is the digital age, my friends. Yes, it is easy to get trapped behind a computer and not got out and actually foster relationships. BUT when you go out to build those relationships in person that have already be fostered online, how much richer can they be!

Thanks for an enjoyable dinner and face time, Joan. Can't wait to hang out again! And to the rest of you out there in blog world - thanks for taking enough interest in me to read! :)

What are your thoughts on friendship and the internet? Help or hinder?

Wednesday, November 11, 2009

Feeling Treasured

Today I do not have to go to work. To honor the veterans, mom came over, and today we will visit the army. The Salvation Army, that is! In all seriousness, today is a great day to appreciate the freedom we have, and the high price at which it came.

Last night, as I was showing my mom different things that are new in our house since she was here last and my latests crafts and whatnot, I remembered she hasn't read our adoption profile yet. Of course, she was excited to read it!

After she was finished she said, "Wow, who are these people?" (In a good way, lol).

Herb says, "You like it? Does it make you want to give us your baby?" Because, of course, that is the test of a good profile.

Mom laughs, and then a light bulb clicks in Herb's head. "I guess you already did give me your baby."

Mom says, "Yeah, my first born, no less!"

It was such a simple conversation, but at that moment I felt so treasured by the two people who love me the most in this world.

Having mom here is always such a joy, and I can't wait to make her a grandma - she's going to be a great one!

Tuesday, November 3, 2009

Ah, Small Celebrations

Social worker liked our story for the profile book. What a relief! Also, I am enjoying little comments people make about when they think we will have a baby, and how much those comments have in common, though unrelated events! I like thinking that God may or may not be telling us something. I am just so happy with the progress that we are having with the adoption. Almost paper pregnant!