There are so many things I want to say. I want to talk about the irony of all kinds of wonderful things happening on the 12th of the month. I want to say how the whole time, I always kind of thought we'd end up with a boy. I want to brag about how smart, handsome, and awesome my son is. I want to upload 1050 pictures.
But for today, I'll keep it simply at this: God answers prayer.
If Levi was not in our lives, God still would be answering our prayers, just in a different way. However, if I've learned nothing else, I believe that it all works out. Yes, there were times I wondered what God was doing. I tried to surrender my desires, asking him to show me his will for our lives and our future family. The way this worked out is certainly not how I would have planned it, but I don't want it any other way now. I couldn't even see these possibilities.
From this HUGE desire fulfilled (the third major one in my life, too!!), I take away trust. If God can make a mediocre musician who dreams of touching lives a music teacher, turn a lonely and insecure girl into a wonderfully delighted wife, and grant an infertile couple with the child of their dreams, why can't I trust him with every.single.part of my life? The answer is I can. I will. I choose to!
I leave you with this, an updated version of our original adoption slide show. I hope it inspires a little hope in your life, too.
If the video doesn't work, watch the movie on Vimeo here