After spending the day with our moms on Sunday, I decided to spend the rest of the afternoon doing what I do best, time consuming DIY projects. I have been thinking about what to put above the crib for weeks now. The focal point of the room. The area I will stare at from the rocking chair for hours on end someday. I wanted it to be a statement.
Enter my lovely Cricut, Sure Cuts A Lot, some inexpensive vinyl, and behold my $3 creation:
This was my first big vinyl project, so there are definitely things I would do differently next time. But it does the job for now. The little secret that makes me feel really happy is the font I used for "child, prayer, and Lord," is called Segeo Script, and is the same font used in our adoption profile.
Anyway, as I was putting the letters up (which took a painstakingly long time), I couldn't help but feel like I was putting the cart before the horse with this quote. For our child yes, I have prayed, but no, the Lord has not yet granted my desire.
And that my friends is the moment I truly felt like I was an "expecting mom" for the first time.
It has been one year since we began this process. I have made my desires known, and I know my prayers will not go unanswered. They have not been answered yet in the ways that I have expected, but I know that I am a better person for going through this journey, I am closer to my husband, and I am learning more about my Father. Those are all good things!
A few weeks ago I stumbled onto the blog of another waiting family, and I read this, which has really stuck with me:
Waiting in expectancy means that you TRUST your Father.
Waiting with expectations means that you have DEMANDS on Him.
Oh, that my expecting may be backed by TRUST and FAITH!