I Missed Out and I'm Over It

When Levi came home, several people remarked about how lucky we were to have missed the "worst of it."  The worst of it being the sleepless nights, and the mixing up of night and day that most babies do.  At the time, I didn't really want to believe that was the case, in fact, I felt sorry for myself for missing out on Levi's first 7 weeks.  After Levi slept from 8pm to 4am straight on his first night, I just figured that all new moms got 8 hours of sleep at a time from the start.

{Levi after a great night of sleep}

That is so not the case. Right?

A few short weeks later, when my neice, Joelle, entered the world, I realized that even the best of babies cost their mamas lots of sleep at the beginning.

That being said, last night I spent several wonderful hours with my new nephew, who is now a whooping five days old.  For sure the smallest and youngest baby I've ever snuggled for longer than 10 minutes.  I spent the night with Cali and baby Lawrence to help with the transition of Daddy going back to work last night.
{Lawrence, Jen Ledden Photography}
I am REALLY glad I got to see first hand what having a brand new baby is like.  I am grateful that Cali trusts me enough to care for her precious little cargo.  I am excited to go back another night or two this week to lend a hand to the new mommy.

But overall, I am selfishly thankful that I personally missed out on that part.  Is that bad?

Don't get me wrong, if God chooses to bless us with an infant someday, I will joyfully rock him or her all night, but at this point in my life, I have no sadness that I missed out on that part of Levi's development.

And it gives me a whole new incredible respect for every other mom in the world - especially the breastfeeding ones.

So - go do something nice for the mom of a newborn today.  She deserves it!


  1. I am a new follower! I love meeting other adoptive mommas!! Cant wait to read more about your story!


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